55th year this, 55 next year. I never thought I would get to this age, my family did not either, my mother would say 'Mark will find an unnatural way from here '. Given my history I can see why anyone would describe me as the 'most willing and likely to die'. I no longer want to die, in fact I am not entirely convinced that I will though there appears to be a lot of evidence to suggest otherwise. I would like another 25 good years at least, just to paint, make some music, do what I love doing with people who I love and make me smile (well at least inwardly)...this is all I want.